I've been thinking about this concept of feeling "overwhelmed" as part of the Dakini's Whisper experience. It doesn't exactly describe my own personal experience but another word occurs to me which does, and maybe others might relate - overstimulated - though even the word "over" doesn't exactly fit. It's not like it's "over the top, too much." It's more like there are so many different resources, practices, offerings, that if I let the integration aspect slip through my fingers, my reaction might be one of helplessness, ("I can't do this."), frustration and giving up. Whatever the term, overwhelmed or overstimulated, it's for me a deeply ingrained, internalized feeling/energy, that swirls around my world with varying degrees of force. Khandro-la's teaching about the dimmer switch - it's all just energy, it's all the same energy - helps me rest in it and see what happens. May my awareness come back to this, again and again, as I begin this 3-month householder retreat.
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How do you feel a sense of "overwhelmed" in you body?
Breathing in, I see myself as thick billow cloud.
I am an ornament of blue sky,
boundless and unfathomable.
Breathing out,
I feel beautiful.
The waves of emotion
can never carry me away.
"Resting" in "Overwhelmedness", sounds like 2 conditions that do not go together at the same time. But somehow it seems like possible. Or maybe even simple when you see all these as the same energy (as on a dimmer switch). Please keep us posted, a very interesting thing.