Vajra Water Dakini: Hello Ellen. Hmmm…you look a little frazzled today. What’s up?
Ellen: It’s raining here, and muddy water is stirred up everywhere.
Vajra Water Dakini: Muddy water runs deep sometimes.
Ellen: Yet, I feel, I see, I know – it’s always held in the arms of Earth.
Vajra Water Dakini: (With a chuckle) Maybe Earth is Water’s lover and protector.
Ellen: Come on, Water Dakini needs no protection! It is her dynamic power that can destroy anything that might obstruct her path!
Vajra Water Dakini: What’s in her path today, Ellen?
Ellen: Ha! You know me so well, Vajra Water Dakini. You know it is only “me” that is obstructing her path today. Damn! I want so badly to rid myself of this self-cherishing, self-grasping! Why is this so hard?!?
Vajra Water Dakini: Nobody said it would be easy. But that’s the hardest part, Ellen, your “wanting so badly to rid yourself” part, that part. Can you look a bit closer at that part? What might she want to say to you?
Ellen: She’s confused. She’s trying so hard not to get in the way. She just wants to be invisible, like a ghost. Instead, she rears her conditioned self (like a ghost) to shock me again and again into some uncomfortable awareness.
Vajra Water Dakini: What if you could see her, instead of as a ghost, more like a mirror? What might she be reflecting back to you…though still she can be quite brutal and shocking, I know.
Ellen: (I pause) It takes guts to look in this mirror. But when I do, I get a glimpse. I see her there. This play of goodness and thwarted intentions, this dance of human realness and clear, untainted possibilities, this love.
Vajra Water Dakini: Go with that, stay with it. Let it take you wherever. Look into the mirror of muddy water. What do you see?
Ellen: Turns out maybe muddy water can reflect clearly when our eyes are open. And that’s not magic, it’s wisdom.